When I looked back over all the images I have taken throughout the project I realised that they were all along the same lines, in the way that they were all very similar and didn’t really give much of a full scale portrait of this young man, Sam. I wanted to show that there were different sides to his emotions like there are within us all so I decided to go about this shoot in a different way.

I decided to shoot at night and not use a flash but depend on the streetlights for what I would see and record. By being able to capture the defined features of his face by having very particular lighting it felt as if the lights were only showing me what they wanted me to see. As if there was no way of me being able to see him completely or try to discover every aspect of his personality or character because I simply couldn’t read him properly. Although, this only intrigued me more because it made me think about things like, ‘would I ever know this person completely?’ and ‘would he ever let me in completely or would I just be constantly trying effortlessly to understand him?’

When I look at these images I feel as if, even after recording him for weeks, this is never going to be enough to understand this person and the transitions in his life that he has previously been through and the ones he is currently ongoing. I feel as if the dark shadows surrounding these images will just always be there and not just with this one person but with all of us. I don’t believe that any of us will truly ever let someone in completely. There will always be things that are left untouched, maybe even hidden, for the rest of our lives. As if we are the red light trying to surround this person but it’s just not good enough.

I also converted the original images to black and white as I thought they were a little bit clearer but I’m not sure whether the red in the images really bothers me as these images are not about the colour but the amount of light that is illuminating the figure.