This is my favourite image from the set because unlike the other images, Sam is not smiling or relaxed. He actually seems tense for the first time in the set and probably the first time in all the images I have produced since working with him. This one image alone put up against any of the others gives you a straight look into another side of his personality which is something I don't feel I had managed yet. This is his reality. What I have been trying to capture for quite some time now.

Don't Tread On Me - Ben Rayner

I came across Ben Rayner a few years ago when I was doing my A level in photography and I still think he is a fabulous photographer. This series 'Don't Tread On Me' is one of my favourite series' and I feel as if it connects with the kind of images that I'm trying to create. 

Over all the times I've done a study on Rayner's work I've become very fond of the characters he chooses to shoot. In this set of photographs I feel as if it's more photojournalism as there is almost a story that's being told throughout the set of images. He not only shoots the people but almost sets the scene by capturing the surroundings and clothing which helps to paint the scene. His ability to capture the emotion and moment of every image really makes you feel as if you were at the scene and lived it yourself which is such a special talent that involves a lot of patience and making sure you're in the right place at the right time. 

Here are a few images that I selected from the images I took before Sam and his friends went to 'Vegas', a grotty place in Greater Manchester that they nickname Vegas due to the all round tackiness.

I noticed how Sam seemed to loosen up a lot throughout the couple of hours as the alcohol flowed which was only to be expected but this made it much easier to photograph him as he accepted the camera, being much more relaxed. Or rather, he paid more attention to the fact that his photograph was being taken. Towards the end of the session he would look at the camera whenever he felt it pointing at him as if he liked the attention he was getting. This obviously could be related to the fact that he had drank a lot and was becoming much more comfortable around me and in front of the camera as we have spent a lot of time playing around with this activity now. 

From the point of view of someone who doesn't know Sam, here you would a twenty year old man, who happens to look a little younger, galavanting with his friends before a night out. Although I feel like even just in the few photographs that I selected to include here you get a range of emotions which give you a slight insight into the mind of this young man and the kind of person that he is. 

Notes.

I decided to join my model again during another occasion where I would be able to capture him in a relaxed and comfortable environment. So I caught up with him a couple of hours before he hit the town with his friends. I thought it would be interesting to record what he gets up to when he's with other people, not just on his own, to see whether or not this would alter his mood or emotions. I want to get to know the personality of my model Sam more by seeing different sides of his personality where there's not only just himself and the photographer in a comfortable environment but where there are other people that he is relaxed around as well to see how this effects the changes in his moods and emotions. 

Teenage Angst - Danny Cohen

When I first started this project I remember one of my tutors saying that what I was doing reminded them of teenage angst. McGinley's version of teenage angst which is taking over the USA is much more my cup of tea but when I found this version I couldn't help but find it quite pleasing to the eye. There is something quite amusing about these images as they are almost making fun of typical teenage angst. These portraits are obviously posed which I've been trying to avoid in my own work due to the kind of artists and photographers that I've been looking at, but from looking at this photographer, Danny Cohen, for the second time it has made me more eager to do a couple of different kinds of portraits, a little more like these but without the quirkiness.

Four Lovers - Danny Cohen

I really like this series of images by photographer Danny Cohen, I'd never come across him before and his website doesn't give much about him or his work away. There is something about this set of images that helps you connect with the people in the images. I'm not one hundred percent as to what this set of images means but what I do know is that there is a longing emotion in all four faces which is where the name 'Four lovers' could relate. From a technical point of view I think the images are just pleasant to look at: framed beautifully with lovely flashes of colour in the background from the city lights. 

From looking at these images and this artist I'fe realised that I need this kind of powerful yet muted emotion in my own images.  

I came across this guy when I was just mooching around the web and I really liked the way he spoke about his portraits. 

'Growing Up

Capturing the expression and emotions of a person allows David to create a lasting memory. No one single frame will capture our span of emotions and expressions.

David takes pictures while you talk and have fun, making use of natural surroundings.The results are usually revealing, evocative and memorable. Showing the persons expressions and thoughts at that time in their life. For a young child it creates a "whole" portrait that will remain relevant and insightful as they grow and mature.'

I know this is probably obvious to a photographer, but I think it's nice to see it written down and it made me think that this is exactly what I want to create within my portraits. Of course as David Morton is a portrait photographer who you can book for weddings and such he only needs to work to creating beautiful pictures to please his clients but what I like about his images is that he makes them as realistic as possible. There is nothing more pleasing to the eye than real emotion as trying to portray emotion could never be as powering or effective as the real thing. 

That is exactly what I want to try and capture within my own images, by not setting up all of my images but going out with my model and capturing him within a comfortable environment where he can relax and be himself just like Morton does with his own images. 

Notes.

I started to think about what I was doing with my work and realised I wasn't doing anywhere near enough. I wasn't sure where I was going or why I was even doing the work that I was doing. Why was I photographing this one boy? Was it because I thought it would be an easy subject? The truth is, I had no idea what to do with this first project. I'm not into fine art at all so this project has been a real struggle from the start but I'm not doing my art foundation course anymore and I've got to do this myself. I knew that by photographing Sam, he would be available whenever I needed him to be and I know that he looks good on camera. This obviously wasn't a good enough reason. I couldn't just photograph someone because I know they would look good on camera, but unfortunately I'm so used to doing fashion photography that I'm ignorant to the fact that there's more to photography than people looking fantastic. 

Although one thing that I've learned from looking at artists like Nan Goldin is that those people are not random people who have been caught in the moment. They knew she was photographing them; for all we know, they didn't start off as her friends, they started off as people she was employing to photograph. This of course, is just an idea. I'm sure Goldin is just as real as every other artist. 

Therefore I believe it is okay to pick and choose who I want to photograph, whether it's because I like the way they look or whether I don't like the way they look. As long as they fit into the idea and concept that I want to capture then that's fine by me. 

With my model Sam, ignoring the fact that he's available and easy to photograph is that realistically he is a boy growing into a man. This is what I wanted to capture, events of a boy becoming a man. It's the perfect time in his life to capture him on camera because he has just moved from the home he has lived in from being a child, to a new city, not knowing anyone and practically doing everything by himself. Something that everyone goes through at one point in there life. I want to capture the different kind of emotions and create a case study about this one person.